Debris of my mind, scattered everywhere

这八个月我有笑有哭. 笑时候有你听到我的欢笑. 哭时候也有你的陪伴，让我感到真幸福. 不觉得孤单和寂寞了. 觉得我的存在还有一点意义. 多一个人关心我，真好. 一起度过人生考验是我这一辈子的荣幸. 我相信我们会有更永久的将来. 我是真心，全心全意对待你的. 谢谢你一直以来的关怀. 谢谢你当时没放弃我. 没你就没我，有你就有我. 谢谢你带来的美好回忆. 你送给我的饼，我们一起吃好吗?

谢谢你的一切.

[Jino] - 你的灿烂一笑带来美好一天

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背熟了的歌 - 八月十六日

August 15, 2008 by jino-2006

远远 (电视剧 [有你终身美丽] 片
尾曲)
词: 林宇中
曲：林宇中

或许我不再出现爱才值得你怀念
你也不想见见了也不变
你痛苦转身的局面

或许我放的坚决你才允许让回忆浮现
是苦还是甜想起我的脸
希望不是眼泪的咸

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈

可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
已不见你幸福爱我的脸
（在远远你幸福我会看见）

还欠你太多誓言我已没资格实践
为我紧紧贴着你的从前
而现在的我
只好离你远远

再见
词: 李志清,
林秋离　
曲：林宇中

爱转成一个圈可并不是那么的圆
走过商店　擦个肩闪过一眼
突然有冲动的　
会想下一次再见

在人群里面期待遇见同一张脸
搜寻的双眼掩不住　渴望的
内心的缺陷

爱穿梭在城市拥挤之间
偏偏又视而不见
停格在擦身的瞬间
强烈的体会到你
身体的语言

爱穿梭在我们双眼之间
有一种陌生的天
就是这特别感觉喔
让我有个信念
我们一定会再次遇见

主题曲 (马来西亚电视剧 “远点”片尾曲)
词: 林宇中
曲：林宇中

回忆的声音    播在夜里
像是一首旋律    多么美丽
那时我很肯定    你是我唯一　
眨个眼我们就各分东西

再说我爱你泪把心占据　
却有些甜蜜让伤心被允许

说过的话语做过的事情　
像歌曲陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

时间早已忘记分手时候的无情
你给的美好回忆让我有怀念的勇气

靠岸
词: 张丽念, 林秋离
曲: 李志清

你坐在我身边可是表情很不自然
聊的话很平凡却很悲伤

你说你不相信活着就是为了梦想
甚至你更怀疑什么是地久天长

咖啡麻醉不了孤单    只会让心更烫
哦    都一样所谓梦想    终究飘飘荡荡
在迷乱的台北流浪    寻找一个幻想
突然很渴望在我身上    找到你要的靠岸

这一刻当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿
爱情早已经开始思念早己经蔓延

咖啡麻醉不了孤单    只会让夜更长
我    也一样飘飘荡荡    眼神交换迷惘
在冷漠的台北流浪    找一个避风港
突然很渴望在你身上    也找到我要的    靠岸

猫头鹰
词: 林宇中
曲：林宇中

白羽毛在风中舞着一种风俗
捍卫弱肉强食的残酷　
眼一贬就勾魂嘴一扬就征服

你比猫的性格难预估　
爱撒娇容易喜新厌旧
就像猫头鹰无心的抓破幸福

做你最甘心的猎物到垂死还不觉痛楚
玩弄被当作爱护我迷了路爱是丛林深处的树
枯萎在你疯狂的报复

爱你爱上这不归路你伤痛望我能平抚
谁能让猫头鹰泪流我愿背负你深夜的孤独

只是有一种失血的麻木

空秋千 (马来西亚电视剧 “远点”片头曲)
词: 林宇中
曲：林宇中

荡秋千    来回终究要停在原点　
望太远    眼前幸福却忽略
晃半圈    圆不了爱恋　
高一遍    低一遍    风就吹散了永远

还想为妳摇秋千对着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点我们会否把手牵

还想被妳碎碎念当数流星的配乐
妳却说妳等不到天亮空秋千陪整夜

秋千和我失眠在妳影子身边
这公园太想念妳无邪的笑脸

苍蝇的泪滴 (新加城 [我在政府部门的日子]插曲)
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中

你的美丽    像黑森林
谁不着迷谁又靠得近
温暖还是冰冷冷    猜测下一秒你的天气
宝贝还是玩具    我怀疑我自已

戴苍蝇的眼镜    太多你数不清　
一千种个性    谁向谁说我爱你
你又不是垃圾    也没有长细菌　
却让我生病    亲一个让我痊愈

戴苍蝇的眼镜    看你举棋对定　
一千颗泪滴    告诉我有多爱你
即使你没反应    我想我也愿意　
被一个温柔的表情    骗我爱上你

复活 (2007 Granado Espada
线上游戏主题曲)
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中
演唱: 林宇中.金莎

你变得像他一样沉默    偶尔也像他一样活泼
连笑声也都一样    我怎么忘    也忘不过一秒
我想要爱    却看到他离开的剎那

你将爱情带走    留我一个分手的魔咒
叫我伤得彻底不敢再妄想谁的温柔
看我的眼神闪躲    我知道你有话不能说
我该如何假装    心才不隐隐作痛

你说分手后　你(我)第一次有想爱的念头
可是眼前的是他还是你(我)    还在争夺
我懂你不想承诺    却又无法解开这魔咒
让我在你心里面复活    无数次的复活　
我只要你爱我

远远看你勇敢在心头    靠近一点却又太懦弱
不拆穿你的困惑    爱不了我(你)    至少不要难过
任何结果    我会点头    只要你快乐

你将爱情带走    留我一个分手的魔咒
叫我伤得彻底不敢再妄想谁的温柔
看我的眼神闪躲    我知道你有话不能说
我该如何假装    心才不隐隐作痛

分手了以后    我(你)第一次有想爱的念头
可是眼前的是他还是你(我)    我(你)还在争夺
我不想给你承诺    却又无法解开这魔咒
让我在你心里面复活    无数次的复活
我只要你爱我　
无数次的复活    我只要你爱我

捉迷藏 (2007 Sony Cybershot T100 系列广告题曲)
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中

亮发妆行李箱　
你先暂时不要管　
机车引擎发动等你跳上来

风很凉路很宽　
甩掉穷追的烦恼　
沙滩海洋铺好我们去赖床

脚步太快太吵闹太污染太乱　
喔带着你落跑跟城市躲猫猫

盖着蓝天窝窝让压迫感找不到　
海风吻吻肩膀摇一摇就不痛了
不想要焦躁失眠忧郁血糖高　
更不要车多人多钱多楼多爱太少

亲爱的别为了柴米油盐穷慌张　
天塌下来有我在第一线为你扛
让轻松从紧蹦的世界活过来　
像玩捉迷藏一样躲着让现实生活捉不到

不安在云中央在飞鸟的口中叼　
你眼神笑开来满格的讯号　
快乐的回家

淋雨中
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中

风吹乱的头发在我眼前挣扎　
把想你剪成几段沙沙的彷徨

雨有一点急躁在我脸上涂鸦　
把心情画得乱七八糟滴答滴答响

我手上没有伞分手的信有一张　
我没有哭是雨水渗透写你爱他那一行

我在淋雨中看你步上彩虹　
我分不了轻重你幸福我该否祝福

我在淋雨中    背着你走不动　
我还有一个梦    被雨水带离我的天空
我的笑容会很酷    若和你们巧碰　
放心我会收起我的痛

停雨之后我不会再哭

旋律
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中

你是眼里的音乐最动心的歌　
你播着全世界突然亮了

多么实在的感觉望着你的脸　
这一刻我到了被人遗忘的永远

在陌生的街天让我们遇见　
像迷路的人找到了回家的路线

你的美丽我要珍惜昨天会忘记　
是谁遗失了你我愿陪着你找回(你)自已

当你姓名化作旋律在我脑海里　
我已确定那个人就是你
窝在我心里最动听的 Melody

Melodi (OT:旋律)
词: 林宇中

曲：林宇中
林宇中 + 马来乐擅天后 Sheila Majid 破天荒首次连连携手合唱

Kau melodi yang indah
Menusuki jiwa
Tanpamu
Hidupku tak bermakna

多么实在的感觉望着你的脸　
这一刻我到了被人遗忘的永远

Pertemuan yang tanpa diduga
像迷路的人找到了回家的路线

Engkau bak lagu dan aku bagai irama
Bersatu kita mewarnai hidup bersama
Tanpamu hilanglah nadi kita berdua
Menderita, tiada haluan
窝在我心里最动听的 Melodi

Menderita, tiada haluan
窝在我心里最动听的 Melodi

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Turbulent changes in time - 27 July ‘08

July 17, 2008 by jino-2006

Time passes by just as I utter breathlessly in the struggle of life. Time passed by too quickly and me who is non-athletic form of human barely able to catch a breath. Why can’t we stop the time from moving? Why can’t we stop river from flowing?

Exams flooded into my schedules simultaneously, yet there’s no motivation to study till the right time came. Microbiology, Management of Principles, Metabolism, Enzymology… I was lucky enough to pass my Management paper, but I can confirm that I will fail my Microbiology paper with shitty kitty bloody betty colour. Metabolism and Enzymology are in the stable condition till further notice. My midterm 1 passed just like that, and the next Midterm 2 will drop by very soon. Real soon. I feel suffocated. I need more time. I have 2 damn big panda eyes already. Instead of sleeping 10 pm, I start to have habit to sleep at 1 or 2 am. Doing revision is very stressful, especially when you are a dilettante. Is this the uni life that was supposed to be relaxing and enjoyable? Why do I feel even harder compared to form 6? It’s as if I fell into a swamp and need help from anyone who passes by to pull me out. Early this sem I told myself, I told my friends, I told them I won’t borrow or copy anyone’s lab report. But gradually, I start borrowing and "use it as references" at dire times (when the deadline is near). The ‘GOD’ reminded me when we were chatting in library. He looked at me unsatisfied, but yes he was right. I broke my own promise, basicly relying too much on friends. I rely too much on him. From now on, I will depend on myself and not the ‘GOD’. Maybe just a little… We must learn to release stress, whether it’s studies stress or it is family pressure or relation conflicts. I enjoy the time we hang around in BTS, Sg Wang, Midvalley, Pavilion or even JJ in Wangsa Maju. Thanks.

UTAR life has changed me a lot. Now my computer can surf net for info
rather than just chatting in msn and download movies. I learn to pool
and bowl once awhile. I learn to talk crap. All these, thanks to my
friends. I proudly present The Pneumonia Gang (废 gang) aka Single Club.
Members: miao - kRazy pieW, kek - Im NooB K3K, sk - Im NooBlet louis,
and bui bui - Ray Tan). In unison, we fight for each other in many
battlefields, such as copy reports, fake signatures in attendance list,
study partners, play mates and etc. At least, I think I have found my 靠岸… which
will guide me for another 2 years through. Few years back I was bound to ego and image (if I have any) that must be uphold while dark shadows tailed me from the back. Now I have released myself from the cage and start to realize how beautiful outside world can be. I start smiling and laughing, acting and moving like a sotong, talk very loud and shamelessly. My true self has shocked many friends. However behind my smile is still a mask that even I cannot recognise. I do not try to hide it, it’s just hidden. It is the unpresentable ugly side of me. The 10 years mask was well hidden and there will never be a right time to destroy it. I remember Jekyll and Hyde…

Biochem Year 2 Sem 1 Group 1 celebrated a lot of his coursemates birthday. We celebrated Siau Chien’s birthday on 12 June, Shiau Li’s on 30th June and Carol’s on July 08. We are planning for See Lok’s celebration on 30 July at karaoke and steamboat. Wish them all the best.

林宇中 new album 干物世界 was released 10th July but I only manage to grab it on 16th. That was the day (16 July) 林宥嘉 came to Sg Wang too. So we (Piew, Shiau Li, Kelvin and me) watched the performance together while Sze Koon and bui bui went somewhere else. I started listening to other artists such as 林宥嘉 and 杨宗纬 thanks to Piew my buddy (check out Krazy pieW in my friends list). I cannot deny 杨宗纬 is a good singer, very talented and lucky performer but 林宥嘉 is a bit off. Lari music and broken voice during the performance that day was not tolerable. Listening to the very same songs by 林宇中 for many years, I think it’s time for me to change a bit and accept new changes. Maybe I shouldn’t keep myself being exposed, maybe I need more input. I am in the middle of un-conservative-ing myself. I am afraid of new thing. New things mean new faces, new environment, need more effort to adapt. But all these are needed for turbulent changes and I know I can do it. I have made my 1st step and there will be another step to the road not taken. Few years back music is very disturbing pollution thanks to Linkin Park. Now I found a new essence to my life which was music. 林宇中 as the energy and motivation source while 杨宗纬 is the filler…

Since I had kept myself long enough from exposure, I think 林宇中 new album would be very suitable. But after listen properly to all songs, I was quite disappointed. "Quite". Only few songs that I like, while other songs are so so. The album consisting of 13 tracks:
01. 上楼 (just tune only)
02. 干物女*
03. 远远*
04. 改嫁*
05. 瓶盖*
06. 维他命C我加你*
07. 放空 (just tune only)
08. 第六个地点*
09. 逆跳表
10. 至少爱过*
11. 幸福马戏团*
12. 抢玫瑰 (featured JJ)
13. 下楼 (just tune only)
The songs with * sign are the only few that I like. There might be changes as the previous songs such as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. Am I expecting too much from a 30 year old guy? Is this his limit? I believe he can do better in future and I am anticipating his 签唱会 in KL. I might fall in love with other songs when he perform live just as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. This is music, nothing is certain. Everyone has different taste but my senses are more complicated. Now he is running several events in Perak. I just hope he doesn’t come to KL when my finals hit the clock.

As of 16th July, my rose bloomed a rose. Of ‘coz a rose plant blooms out a rose, but I mean… Yeah there is a flower in the rose pot!!! I cut the flower previously on 26 May and now 16 July it blooms another new one. My 1st flower!!! That’s not all. 27 July, there are 5 more little flower buds ready to bloom. This is another great success for me. I can sell them when Valentine’s around the corner earning a penny or two. Or as Kek suggested, I can give it to someone I love? But definitely not Pei Zhi or package G. I will keep the rose stay healthy and grow. In the future if I fail to become Biochemist, at least I can start selling flowers.

My last hair cut was on 5th May. After 3 months of wearing "helmet" (means thick hair), I had my hair cut at Genting Klang Silver Cut after Enzymology midterm. The bad point is he took such a long time to cut making me almost fell asleep. But the good point is he cut my hair and I think it’s quite nice compared to previous cut. But another bad point is, he didn’t teach me how to style my hair. But a good point is I think it is quite cheap considering RM 15 compared to my previous RM 13 QQ CuT. I need professional Sze Koon and bui bui to teach me how to wax my hair. Now that I have a new look, je ne sais quoi attitude (my true behaviour), friends, all I need now is not much of luck to succeed. As Robert Falcon Scott said, "To Strive, To Seek, To Find but Not To Yield". FKL lion patrol’s motto : Spirit is Success.

[Jino] - A man’s not a man unless he knows how to shoot

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Hectic, busy, pathetic but joyful, care-free lifestyle with higher aims - 15 June 2008

June 15, 2008 by jino-2006

The last day of my holiday season ended on last 25th of May. Which means my new sem started on 26th May. I am now officially a Year 2 Sem 1 Biochem student. 1st year passed very quickly. Last sem my GPA was 2.8000 while my CGPA has increased to 2.7142. At least it’s increasing. This sem I am taking 5 subjects in total. Or rather as Ben said, 5 papers. Microbiology, is a killing paper. Above 70% of the students failed last sem. Can you imagine how does this paper will kill me next? Principles of Nutrition is also a killing paper. We study RDAs, AIs, ULs, EARs, AMDRs, EERs rather than vitamins, minerals or food nutrients. The next paper is Metabolism 1. The lecturer’s way of teaching is the worst I have ever seen. Imagine I have to use camera to snap pics as she is not giving notes to us, and yet we have to study so many machines and the theories working on it. But a good point about her is that she was baby’s coursemate. Besides that, Management Principles is suicidal. The lecturer and tutor is 2 different people. The lecture is bored as hell ‘coz I don’t understand a thing. To be more precise, her words cannot enter my ear. However, the tutorial is the only time i enjoyed the most. The tutor is a funny guy. Enzymology 1 is the only subject that I can understand. It’s about enzyme protein. I had been studying for the last 2 years haha. So I guess this is the only subject to score this year?

The schedule for this sem is a very head spinner. The time itself is laughable. From 9 am to 6 pm on Monday with 4 hours in between, I have too much time to spend. But when I drive back home after class, I will reach home only at 9 pm due to the strawberry. On Tuesday from 10 am to 7.30 pm. Yes, 7.30 pm. No joke 7.30 pm. With 3 hours break in between. By the time I reach home, it will be 9 pm (if there’s no rain/ accident/ strawberry). Wed is a bit relaxing. 9 am to 2 pm. No complain. But the next on Thursday is 9.30 am to 7.30 pm with 2 hours break. Yes again 7.30 pm. Haiz… On Friday is from 9 am to 4 pm. Sometimes after Tuesday and Thursday class, I will offer some girls for a ride back home. Err actually they ask for my favour. ‘Coz its dangerous to take bus back home, especially when there’s no one else in the bus. UTAR is totally brainless ‘coz they can approve such schedule as if they are meant to torture us little children. On Friday I drop some of my friends at lrt after school ‘coz they want to go back hometown.

So far this sem has 2 assignments. Management Principles and Principles of Nutrition. But I had completed my part in Management Principles. Now left only Principles of Nutrition which I have no idea how to start yet. Practical reports are not as hell as the last 2 sems. ‘Coz we are required to submit mostly short reports. This sem I am going to break my record in my whole life. I will buy a book called Microbiology for my studies. This is the most expensive book I have ever bought, RM 83.

I do not consider all this as disaster (yet). The real disaster is yet to come in finals. I treat them as challenges. Life is more interesting when there are challenges. Although sleep very early at night, but waking up early in the morning is hard. Tiredness in the morning + boring subjects = Bedtime. But there are a few people that I need to thank. 1st is Grace. She gave me a poster in 1 morning. It’s none other than baby’s poster. It’s a real surprise ‘coz I never expect something nice to happen in the morning. The next is Shiau Li. She gave me a few of baby’s brochure on 29th May morning. Very unexpected as well. ‘Coz I have never seen it yet. She took 3 copies for me from KLCC Sony Center. So I too took at least 10 copies from Midvalley Sony Center when I attend U6BF gathering last 4th June. The last person to thank is Piew!!! He took 3 copies of baby’s some sort of magazine from Sg Wang. 8 pages magazine where 7 of them are baby’s pages. So thankful Piew took for me ‘coz when I went to Sg Wang today I couldn’t find it.

Piew’s magazine and Shiau Li’s brochure

Grace’s poster

This sem although does not start with good things, but I am motivated as day passes by. I am getting used to the hectic shedule, and I am no more a blur guy. This sem I will definitely do better than previous sems (although it’s practically not logical, but I will make it happen).

Recently there was a gathering for my class as well. U6BF 2005/2006 is famous for close friendships, the noisiest class in the whole form 6in VI. That day I met few of my classmates that seldom attend gatherings. Si Toh, Justina, Yee… Really miss them. We had our gathering in Midvalley Chili’s on 4th June. 18 people attended the gathering and Chili’s was so noisy like pasar malam. Thx to the contribution of all of us [Wai Yin, Fiona, Laushu, Kian Ti, Ben, Li-shia (not classmate), Li Ling, Len Yi, Yee, Phon, Phakai, Vincent, Wai Loon, Ching Yeng, Si Toh, Justina, and me]. OH SORRY I HAVE FORGOTTEN CHU CHUN HONG!!! HE WENT BACK EARLY SO I HAVE FORGOTTEN HIM HEHE (edited 20th June). It ended very late. And it’s a silly day for me too. The next day is the increase of petrol price to RM 2.70. But I only fill RM 10 ‘coz I don’t know bout the increase.

At Chili’s

On 12th June, Biochem Group 1 celebrated Siau Chien’s 21st birthday. We had a mini party in UTAR cafeteria during break time. We bought her a Cheeze Chocolate Cake from Secret Recipe. Don’t ask me why this cake. But it’s a nice cake. At least I think it’s nice. I wonder how many people will remember my birthday? I know I have forgotten Kah Loong’s, and yet I have not wished him yet. Haha…

Siau Chien’s birthday pics

Rynn my baby is going to release his new album very soon. Nowadays MY fm always play its theme song 听见辛副 and baby’s new song 干物女. I am waiting for 10 July, the date of his new album 干物世界 launching. Today is the presale of his new album. Those who make booking will get his poster and a diary. So I planned to go with someone, but none wants to wait with me from 12 pm till the event starts. So Kelvin accompanied me after his work at 2 pm. I waited alone till the time comes. There was an auction for Sze Chuan victims before my baby’s event. So I stayed there to watch. It was very shocking to see those people doing charity. A girl student can offer RM 800 for Farenheit poster, while a guy can offer RM 1500 for SHE’s handmade wrist chain. Are they nuts? They are not doing charity. They are chasing fames. I cannot understand how youngsters think. They are filthy rich.

When the booth for baby opened, I was the 3rd to purchase the album haha. I am proud of myself. There are free stickers as well. Then he sang his new song 干物女 and sign all the posters. He even signed my previous 2 albums haha… But after the album, all I can eat for the whole month is cucumber and sand. I am totally broke. But it’s definitely worth it, and 1 of my dreams came through again this year…

Rynn in Sg Wang for 3rd album pre-sale event

This is how his poster and stickers look like

Many people had been asking me the same question recently. "Jino, have you moved?" I must shamefully answer, "NO". I think the renovation progress since then is 0. If you treat me as friends, don’t mention this thing in front of me anymore. Thank you very much.

Life now is up and down. There’s no guarantee what will happen next. I need to make myself busy to hide my sorrowness. I pity those in Sze Chuan ‘coz I am more lucky than them. I cry when I heard the news. So many people died innocently yet so many useless people still living in this world. I might be one of the useless type, but I am changing. I want to become Ultraman, strong enough to survive in this world… I am ULTRAMAN. HI YEAK!!!

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05 May 2008 - Glimpse of My Sem Break

May 5, 2008 by jino-2006

Now it’s my turn to be free. 03 May ’08, 1600 pm. After my last paper UESE1204 Structural Biochemistry, I felt so light. It’s as if something was lifted away, as if I can fly. But I never jump from the building. ‘Coz there’s no need to. I hope I can pass all the papers with grade B and above. My Maths and Chemistry were like hell. I don’t think there’s anything to think bout the past but hope for the best to come.

After the last paper, I had a thought of doing a list of what to do during the sem break. I had a lot in my mind, but I wonder how many things can I accomplished in just a week? Let’s just try and see…

a) ~~Clear up the messy room~~

b) ~~Go to Cameron Highlands~~ (7th May)
c) ~~Buy cactus~~ (rose) ~~from Cameron Highlands~~
d) ~~Celebrate suzanne’s birthday on 17th May~~
e) ~~Collect my camera charger in Midvalley~~ (4th June)
f) ~~Complete baby’s drama download~~ (20th June)
g) Apply Celcom Postpaid
h) Return all Form 6 Chemistry books to Chu (I think Form 6 books were useful compared to those recommended by lecturer)
i) ~~Return all Form 6 Maths Kasturi notes to Khor Kah Loong~~
j) Buy Hitsugaya miniature
k) Reformat my computer
l) ~~Pay bill for next sem~~

There’re only 10 of them. I think it shouldn’t be a problem for me right? Just as a ‘spoiler’, I will be using Celcom in the future. But 016 will be remained as well. And I want to plant a cactus too. I hope it blooms flower rather than drooping to the ground. "LIFE is MEANINGLESS if we hv lost our DIRECTION…" – Kah Loong. That’s why I try to put everything into a piece, and making me easier to decide what to do than wasting time thinking…

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Cream Caramel - 05/04/2008

April 6, 2008 by jino-2006

Some time ago Lam showed me his recipe book. I couldn’t get the name of the book, but he showed me a page of cream caramel. I don’t know why it is
call cream caramel. It looks more like a pudding to me. Anyway the picture was so attractive, I copied down the recipe. After reading the methods, I found that the steps are pretty easy, and the materials are so common. This is what I copied from the recipe book:

Materials
Custard
500 ml milk
1 vanilla pod/ 1 teaspoon vanilla essence
3 eggs
100 g caster sugar

Caramel
100 g caster sugar
50 ml water

I was confused of what caster sugar is actually. I couldn’t find it in Carrefour. So it delayed me from making it. But I found it in Tesco a month later. 500 g caster sugar at RM 1.98. Affordable to me. For the caramel part, I combined the sugar and water together and cooked them at low heat till they turned into brown colour. After that, the caramel was poured into moulds. I took two hours to cook the caramel. Stood still next to the fire and keep stirring was a boring job. I had to keep stirring or the sugar will hangus.

For the custard part, milk was poured into a saucepan. The book says "spilt the vanilla pod and use the tip of knife to scrape the seeds into milk"
. Till now I have no idea what a vanilla pod is. I just put a teaspoon of vanilla essence into the milk. Simpler… Then the milk was brought to boil. Same theory as the caramel, keep stirring or else the milk will hangus. Eggs and sugar were beaten till creamy. I had problem with this part. As I have to stir the milk, I have to beat the eggs at the same time. So using right hand to stir the milk, left hand was used to beat the egg with the machine which is used to make cake. I made my life simpler that way… I didnt understand the word creamy. But I beat the eggs for very long, maybe this is what it meant. The milk were added into the eggs after boiling and mixed well. Then the milk was strained into the mould with caramel. It must be done slowly as to prevent the caramel layer to be spoilt. And also be reminded to reduce the bubbles as much as possible.

The recipe asks me to "fill a baking pan with water to come at least half-way up to the sides of the moulds, and then bake the cream caramel in the baking pan for one to two hours just like water bath till the mixture sets. After that the mixture were chilled in refridgerator and ready to serve".

I had problem choosing my mould. If it were to use water bath at high temperature, my moulds will melt away and poisonous. My original plan was to use plastic moulds. But then later I change the moulds into metal rice bowls haha. Is this the biggest cream caramel in the world? And I did not bake my cream caramel. I steam them as if I am steaming fish. Because of the moulds, from using 10 moulds I ended up producing only 4 of them due to the difference in size of the mould.

My mama said that I will definitely fail. Her cruel words never demotivate me. I gave myself 80% for my cream caramel. 20% was deducted because the caramel part does not solidify at all. It is all liquid. Sad… And this cream caramel was TOO SWEET!!! Very sweet!!! Super duper ultra sweet!!! With the caramel it made it tera sweet!!! But it’s my first try, and I like it so much hehe… Even my mama said it was nice enough as an amateur. 80% for the nice custard part hehe… Sorry I don’t have enough specimen to distribute around for free sampling… Sorry Lam, sorry everyone hehe…

I am quite delighted that I made this dessert. Now I realize I have some potential in cooking and it may be my alternative if I fail my exams haha… After feeling sad in the afternoon that day, this made me feel much better. One thing that bothers me very much is after everything is done, I must clean and place back each and every utensils. I wish I have a personal assistant that day. This also shows how busy I am during study week for the final exams…

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Exam time - 05/04/2008

April 4, 2008 by jino-2006

Just to update you guys bout
Jino who is nowhere to be found lately.

First of all I would like to
apologize for the announcement I made previously that I will be moving to new
house last 23 of March. That move will be postponed till further notice. I do
not know what reason to give. And I do not need to give any reason. Just
disappointment filling me throughout my heart. My own room, privacy… How long
do I need to wait again this time? Let me guess. Another 2 years. Let’s see the
results in the next 2 years…

Jino’s assignment and test seasons was over. Maths tests X 2 + assignment and interview… Pengajian Malaysia presentation… English assignment long report + presentation… Physical Chem Midterm + open book test + lab reports… Structural Bio midterm + lab reports… Everything’s over… But Jino’s final exam is coming up
which is scheduled as below:

23 Apr – English for Science

25 Apr – Mathematics for
Bioscience

28 Apr – Physical Chemistry

02 May – Pengajian Malaysia

03 May – Structural Biochemistry

Basicly I am not worried
about English and Maths as I think I am well prepared for the subjects. I even
score good marks in course works. What I really worry is Pengajian Malaysia.
Throughout the 13 weeks, the lecturer never teaches a single thing. He attends
classes and then cancels the classes. He attends classes during presentation
time. There’s no test for this subject, just a final. So I am really blur bout
this subject as if there is no guideline to follow. I am OK with Physical Chem
and Structural Bio, at least I think I am. We had an open book test yesterday,
but due to the time constraint, everyone was allowed to complete the test at
home and pass up the next morning. But the lecturer was so angry the next
morning when she saw many people copying each other. So she gave us 5 seconds
to pass up otherwise any papers submitted after that will be rejected. She was
so strict she really gave us exactly 5 seconds. Luckily I was fast enough. Pity
half the class who took her word as joke. Although quite unfair to some people,
I do not blame her. Anyway this test is 5 marks of the coursework. Quite high,
eh? I will try my best to score in finals. I set president list as my target
recently haha… Although it sounds quite impossible at this stage. After the exams I will having holidays to approximately 18 May. Lately I will be very busy but I will also try my best to come out for movies. I missed a lot of nice movies lately.